Updated: Sep 5, 2018
Hello friends! I hope this post finds you well. A week and a half ago I brought my baby into this world. It has been a rollercoaster ever since. It has been one of the hardest things I have ever had to do or endure. After a long labor, some complications with little Owen, and a week in the hospital, we finally got to come home. Now we have been working on a feeding schedule and trying to get a routine into place in the midst of all the doctor appointments and people coming to see him. He is so loved and so are we. We have a great support system helping us make this adjustment. However, throughout it all, I have been a rollercoaster of emotions. I have felt many times over this last week and a half so overwhelmed with thoughts of, how am I going to be able to take care of something so small? What if I am not feeding him enough? Can I really be the mom that Owen deserves to have? Even right now I am writing this while downing a cup of coffee and muffin while he is sleeping before he wakes up! There have been so many uncertainties as you can imagine and I have really felt not adequate or sufficient enough to do this job called motherhood. However, God knows right where I am at this moment and two days ago when I finally sat down to do my bible study, after a whole week, God brought a scripture to my attention.
"It is not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything as coming from ourselves, but our adequacy is from God. He has made us competent to be ministers of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit." (2 Corinthians 3:5-6)
Paul is writing to the church at Corinth trying to encourage the people that their worth and identity comes from Christ not from letters. Letters are referring to letters of recommendation (v. 1). So in other words, our worth and value does not come from human recommendation but from the Spirit of God! This has helped me change my perspective. I have been so focused on not being competent or adequate enough to be Owen's mommy. I have also been focusing on what all the advice experts say about raising an infant that I forgot that first and foremost, my self-worth and adequacy comes from God! I am not sufficient enough on my own but I am in Him!
So whatever you are facing today, whether it be being a mom for the first time, starting a new job, or trying to witness to someone, have confidence in knowing that with God, we are competent to complete the task God has set before us! Our adequacy is from God not from what others think or from ourselves. Such a simple concept yet, so powerful!